no lies, just love.

bright eyes came on shuffle. i listened to no lies, just love. i got extremely upset. then, i went to my playlist that makes me happy, and i'm not okay came on shuffle. i was reminded of the revenge era and middle school and my sadness worsened. and now a song about how jesus is a liar.
gah.
i feel like giving up. nothing is ever gonna change. i'm so sick and tired of trying to fix things and trying to make things better and failing miserably. and i'm tired of sitting and waiting for shit to change and be done. cause nothing will. i am fucked for life. and theres nothing i can do.
i can't find my camera, it was probably stolen, my moms is broken and she doesnt want to pay the money to get it fixed, i dont have money to get a new digital one, and they keep advoiding me when i ask about the diana camera that i absolutely want and will use like, everyday. i have approximately $140 in my bank account and i dont have a job/cant drive.
my basketball skills are deminishing. i dont have anyone that i could hang out with a lot over the summer and always have fun with, not really.
the biggest things i'm looking forward to is warped and disney. and they're within the same week. what's going to happen after they're over? what am i going to do, besides community service? (which might not even count towards my hours fml)
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oh, i'm also excited for artwork to come out, but besides that, unless mcrs new cd comes out, nothing.
oh fuck, drowning lessons is on.
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