i do not like crying. so i won't, or at least, i'll try not to.
i also do not like hurting.
i don't like the pain in my chest that comes out of nowhere, but i always know why its there.
i don't like not having an appetite.
i don't like listening to bright eyes when i'm sad, but sadly i can't help it.
i don't like my crowded room and humid atmosphere.
and i don't like this, not at all.

i'm having a terrible night.

i just need someone to force me to study and hold me simultaneously.

summer goals:
hang out with friends. often. not just sit on my ass. [meet new ones? i need new ones.]
work out.
watch/catch up on all the shows i need to.
read.
get room to the way i want it and maintain it.
make/buy clothes.


:/
tonight is just terrible. i cannot fathom having an exam tomorrow atm.