i saw the boy for the first time in forever. it was amazingly amazing and and and *huggles*
i hate soccer tryouts. well, i only hate them cause its way too hot. besides that it's not too bad. but i am frustrated with people who like, give up. we were running suicide sprints and after like, the 2nd one a few people just stopped. seriously? i don't know, it just makes me mad. cause everyone else is pushing themselves, having asthma attacks and still running. and these people just, 'oh no, i'm out of breath. let me sit down and not finish.' urg fuck that. grow some ovaries and run dammit. it actually won't kill you. you need to lose weight anyways...
and once again, i do not want to deal with anyone from school. like, i just don't.
and now my friend is telling me how risky sex is [condoms break, leak, and slip off all the time!!], how no boy is special, how you're only gonna get hurt in the end [physically and emotionally]
her: im just tryin to like
....
help u in the longterm
i dont want u to end up....
well.
mm
her: and it fucks with u
even if u dont think it will. it does.
and like...when ur...30...40..50...
ur gonna remember...
that..when u were 15 u had sex with .....[mitch]
what is that going to mean...when you're that old
and looking back
and like...r you going to wish u had waited for somthing more substantial that a highschool boyfriend..who....4 months down the line.....dosnt matter anymore
love is fleeting.
and now im having second thoughts and i hate having second thoughts cause then i get confused and i go crazy and it's horrible. i know shes trying to help and i really do appreciate that but still... i feel as if the time comes i will either not think about that at all, or cant stop and start crying. either way, now im thinking way more than i have all summer and i kinda wish rachael was online so i can talk to her.
someone should stop me from thinking...
and now im having second thoughts and i hate having second thoughts cause then i get confused and i go crazy and it's horrible. i know shes trying to help and i really do appreciate that but still... i feel as if the time comes i will either not think about that at all, or cant stop and start crying. either way, now im thinking way more than i have all summer and i kinda wish rachael was online so i can talk to her.
someone should stop me from thinking...
this is a cute picture of adam :D
...its too big for the width of the blog...xD
1 comment:
which friend is that?
at first i thought it was jada, but...tyler?
because.
it's b.s.
if you want to do it, do it.
i'll take care of you if anything at all goes in any way awry (ie, "it fucks with you," or "you'll regret it" or "condoms break and you'll end up well mm").
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