what if you find out that everyone in your life...

is only being paid off by a t.v. studio. and every conversation everyone's had with you, was scripted by the writers living in los angeles.

smile for the camera.

put on a show for the viewers back home, hide the truth so they'll never know...


i hate people who are so fake its disgustingly obvious.
who contradict themselves in every sentence because they don't know what they're saying. they just heard two different 'cool' people say it,
so they did too.
i hate when people look so much like the person they are standing next to, and they're so uncomfortable cause they don't want to look like them.
but it's 'cool',
so they wear those clothes too.
i hate when people go to something when they obviously aren't that excited to be going, just cause it's the 'cool' thing to do.
seriously?
get. a. life.
it's pissing me off so much.
i honestly don't care if you wear the same clothes, say the same thing, and if you are basically the same person as someone else,
as long as that is who you are.
stop trying to kid everybody into thinking that you're something you're not. most of all, don't kid yourself.
it's annoying.
and it makes you look stupid. cause we all see right through you.
you can't fool us.
don't tell me that you're totally into insertnamehere, when you've never even heard of it until that moment. don't tell me that you're friend does thisthatandtheother, when you have no friends to begin with.
just. stop.
i've never been so annoyed with this in my life, and i don't know why it's coming out now.
i think i'm just sick of all the same/normalness.
and everytime i try to escape the mindless clones, i find them again.
different names, same person.
it's awful, it's awful, it's awful.
and i hate how many people from school want to come to warped tour this year.
and i know that's mean and kinda shallow and whatever, but it's so annoying.
it was my thing. something that set me apart.
then it became sujis thing too, and i could deal with that.
but all these random people who want to go and see one band for 30 fucking minutes, or just to hang, that's not cool.
it's fucking annoying and i can't stand it.
find your own scene please.
just because chelsea is really fucking cool and she goes to warped tour, doesn't mean you have to go as well. okay? okay.
i mean, shit. if you don't like screamo, stop going to screamo shows.
it's that simple.
if you don't like skinny jeans,
don't wear them.
it's not that difficult.
ugh, this whole popularity thing is really driving me up the wall.
oh, and going from 'emo' to 'ghetto' does not happen.
you are either faking now, or you were faking then.
just cause you got a black boyfriend does not mean you have to start listening to rap and hip hop and stuff.
and just cause someone you liked loved rock, does not mean you have to become 'emo' or 'scene.'
i know this was last summer and all but it still pisses me off. i have the inability to let go and you'll have to deal with it. i know people change. i have.
but people don't change that quickly and that drastically.
and you might point fingers at me, but i've always liked rock and dark shit. i just never had friends who did. and not having friends share the same likes as you when you're 10 is hard. it's much easier when you're 15.
and do not come up to me and tell me about how 'ghetto' you are now. or how any stereotype you are. cause frankly, i don't give a shit.
anything you say along those lines is complete bullshit to me.
and do not tell me that i'm not black enough or anything like that.
cause, once again. complete. bull. shit.
and furthermore i've realized that i can't tell the difference between spoken italian and spanish.