i'm still breathing.

i cried today.
everything finally caught up.
it was one of those, "straw that broke the camels back" things.
i had a 20minute conversation with maggiesaurus about soccer and basketball and my coach and my dislike for her. and how being with my coach from end of august to mid february is terrible. so with that on the brain, and report cards looming in the near future [like, 2 weeks] and trying to see the boy, and making halloween plans, and keeping everything okay at home, i tried to make it through a day [and my life] running on almost nothing but coffee. i saw the 2 vollyball girls putting on lotion and make up with T and Bri. i asked where they were going. they said they were going to my boys school to watch the football game. i asked if it was varsity. they said jv.
i broke.
i started freaking out and crying. which promted liz to take me to maggiesaurus's to get taped and talked about everything but what was bringing me down.
i love liz. she's amazing.

anywho, it was awful. and i only made it through practice because of the katlins, cate and alex having to pee [they couldn't move they had to pee so badly], liz, and tesstastic.
without them, i think i would've died.

i'm going to lizifers house tomorrow!! im happy about that. AND ONLY ONE MORE SOCCER PRACTICE. that's a nice thought.